Ok it's a saturday night

[htran]

It's been a little over a year since the accident and I'm sitting here writing on this forum on a saturday night.. Wow didn't think my life would suck this bad. Don't get me wrong I still feel bless to have what I have and to be alive, but man saturday night and I'm home. Pre sci, I'm out with my husband and friends, going to the movies or eating out or going to the bars while the kids spent the night at their cousins house. I guess I can still do all the stuff since I'm a para, but at times I'm self conscious about myself.. I'm getting better day by day. Just the other day I had a guy stare at my feet when I was rolling by and so I asked him if there was a problem. He stop staring. Tonight there is a birthday party at my friends house and I'm not going because I don't want the questions or stare. Plus his house is small and there's going to be alot of people there. Is it me? or do u guys feel the same.. I want to live my life to the fullest, go where I want to go, do what I want to do. Why am I afraid of what people think of me. A cripple....
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