PAIN! Know i need to get rods removed. NOW I AM SCARED!

[solarscar69]

I just had a moment of clarity today i think about my whole situation with the emence pain generated from the rods that travel from t11 to l3. The pain meds are just so overwelming and though they help, the meds wear off and the pain is still there. Whenever i move to reach something or whatever i can feel my muscles being stretched and scraped over the rods, especially at the top where they end, like there is a raw piece of jagged metal that makes up the top portion of my rods where the start. My upper back above the rods looks totally screwed up, there is NO muscle there and that part is not affected by the SCI since its above the injury. Its like my muscles are constantly trying to reject these things everytime they "know" there there by me moving or whatever. Like someone taking a screwdriver and poking it at me until the muscles are bruised and aching eventually producing chest-tighting sporadic spasms which take my breath away. I tried and tried to deal with this and possible trying to deny the fact that they are just not working for me in my body and that i need to get them removed. I almost had a panic attack when i came to the realization that they have to come out sometime soon. I think i just need you guys to give my positive feedback or someone that has gone through and give me details of what the whold process is like or even Wise can give me some explanation as to how they are removed, ect. They have been in place since the day of my wreck, Sept. 25 2002. I am so scared to go back under and have them rip my back open. I just want a positive outcome without mistakes like injuring me more or for some reason the surgery goes hay wire and i die or something. What are the odds of success with this. SOMEONE!

Thanks for listening to me.

Adam

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