I'm tired of this #$%&-ing pain!!!!

[metronycguy]

the level od peoples burning can be qyuite a bit differnt, what you considert burning, some people that have extreme pain would call that tolerated.. ma
when they spoke on tn recnetly about the CIA torture scandal, thry spoke of a guy with a power drill standing by.
i immediately thought to myself that is the way i hav been for years
many times it feels like a electric drill or a hacksaw.
that is a daily
occurrence for me. in fact it is starting right now
its been a lot of years of being drilled qnd i am ready to talk

[bollefen]

God if talking would only stop it!

Sorry Metro, know the drill well, no hacksaw but a beltsander tearing my feet off.

kindly,

Bill

All that I am is all gone

[Grange]

Still saying F@#K to the pain!!!!!

[huskerboy]

yes it is. the f,n pain feels like fire shooting out of my feet. the only other thing is the feelin of my legs is intense. it consists of my flesh being torn off and someone is toying with ezposed tissue whith what is left.

my younger daughter has seen me meltdown. she has so much eympathy for mr and she is oniy 11. my older daughtter is 13 and she experienced one of my meltdowns last week. we have always had a distant relatioship. That night I asked her to just hold me. i asked her how it felt. she said it felt awkward because mee were the ones to hold them when they felt sad.

This little pain of mine has ruined my dad relationship as indestructable w/ my girls an my wy wife.

[dejerine]

huskerboy, your post is so freaking tragic,and all the more so because we understand what you are talking about with your pain AND your kid. Keep talking to her. She will remember the conversation later and digest it better then. A kid has a right to expect certain things, and it is good she feels the loss. It means she still is thinking about you.

[Muriel]

When I hurt the most....its my youngest daughter who holds me and says its alright to cry mum....Our kids do not like to see us suffer, we should be looking after them, but circumstances can dictate otherwise....our kids hurt because we hurt , but don't underestimate your kids, they still love you...

[shawnmichelle]

wow, i thought i was alone.

[Coleen]

shawnmichelle, you are NOT alone! There's a lot more people than are on this site that are in terrible indescribably pain 24/7 and have no options besides to live with it.
It sucks, but that's the truth.

[thehipcrip]

shawnmichelle, it is a tragedy that you are not alone in your experience with unrelenting pain.

It is a blessing that we have people who truly understand our experiences there to support us and help us make it through, even if only for the next few minutes.

As far as being tired of the fricking pain, I've developed a whole new type of pain that was old the day it arrived: the feeling that ground glass is being rubbed into the underside of my upper left arm. Between the needle pain, the stabbing butcher knife, the "sucking the marrow out of my shoulder blade", and the bamboo splinters being woven in and out of my skin, that left arm/shoulder/breast region is threatening to overwhelm me.

Yet some days, the pain from my dislocated right shoulder that gets through the nerve damage parasthesia in that arm is bad enough to distract me from the CP. In some ways, this is a good thing -- at least the right shoulder pain is nociceptic and will usually respond to to opiates.

How fucked up is it to ever consider having a permanently dislocated shoulder a positive thing?!?!?

[JoeMonte]

I pray all of you on this thread gets some relief. I hope someday we will all feel relieved in someway. I have only been injured and in pain for less than three years. I can't imagine what some of you have gone through. I hope in time they come out with something. I am on neurotin and some pain meds and see nothing out there is really working. You would think the medical society would focus on pain management seriously. I wish all of you well.
Best Regards,
Joe Monte