Inspiration is a journey of life. It changes, grows, learns,adapts and accepts. It is fluid, coping with pain beyond imagining and seeking ways to go on with strenth and grace. It recognizes the profound beauty in the simplest aspects of life, and in honest emotion, and honors the value of love freely given. Sometimes, in life's bleakest moments, it seems inspiration has abandoned us, but - for those who would continue this difficult journey - we find it again, though it may have changed it's song once more.
My journey caregiving for my family(meaning - in this case, parents, sisters and aunt) was long, complex and difficult. I found a forum for caregivers and used a succession of sig lines when I participated there that -looking back - express the journey I took and the way my perspective changed.The inspiration that kept me going changed over time. My initial mantra was as simple as:
"It can only get so bad before it has to get better"
Not exactly uplifting, but it got me through some very stressful times when I could barely keep my head up. Life became less stressful after the deaths of all but one of my family members, but less stressful - when you've lost loved ones - is merely a different kind of ache and ,for awhile, my quote became:
"Freedom's just another word for nothing left to lose"
Time does heal. I found solace in Debbie, our pets, my niece and friends- and in reaching out to others in need, including fellow caregivers on that forum. I changed my quote to
"Lean on me, when you're not strong, and I"ll be your friend, I'll help you carry on"
I learned a lot about life and death over those years. Like everyone, I"ll continue learning - and changing - all my life. I see both beauty and ugliness in this world , there is still plenty of stress to be had,and I have my days where I'd rather just hide. There are also those moments of great love and joy. I know I can get through the dark times - I have before - and I strive to truly appreciate the good moments and not take them for granted. My saying now?
"Whatever tomorrow brings, I"ll be there - with open arms and open eyes"