Rebus are you there? I am a T9 complete. It happened at age 42 now I am 49.
My son got into drugs2 yrs ago and is clean now but let me tell you it wasn't an easy battle. He was on anything that would go in a needle and he is an abled bodied person. He went to rehab 2 times and I put him in jail 3 times finally he got the message and went to an Overcomer's rehab for one month and decided to come clean or go to prison. This went on for 3 yrs.
I'm sorry for your experience, but there is hope and a God. Find strength and know that you are not alone. Follow you instinct. I know this is cold but when someone wants to die you have to help them find a resone to live and what ever they decide you can't stop it. Just pray.