Appreciate the response. And thanks, Sheri...ha, no one likes a stick in the mud but this site has people who live and understand it. Outside of here it seems best to mainly keep the misery to myself.
Funk, saw that you have been injured for a long time and close to my age. You definitely seem educated on the topic and sound quite positive. I did have therapy while in the hosp/rehab for good measure and it lasted like 4 weeks. Ladder fall and my head was busted open in the back too. Luckily no brain injury. No drugs prescribed or recommended other than the usual pain meds etc.
If depression is being unhappy or miserable with what life has permanently become, then I am definitely depressed. Feels like a natural response though. But that's just me; others do much better. 35 years and plenty of down moments, but nothing that wasn't fixable. This injury never stops though. It's always there. If there was even a small chance of getting my body back I would never stop working for it. But there isn't...the only thing there is keeping above my injury strong so I can move this limp body around.
No sexual sensation has to be the worst for me. I mean, incontinence is bad. So is not hiking, skateboarding, playing drums, or pressing a clutch pedal. But having sensation and orgasms cut off, cold turkey, is like torture. Glad I did what I did for 20 something adult-years before this happened. But then again, comparing circumstances is the root of this struggle! Sometimes I wish I didn't know how satisfying and enjoyable it was. And that comparison list goes far beyond sex with an SCI. It's understandable why having an exit route greatly comforts people. At least you're not completely trapped.