suicide

[Moto2Mini]

I have been taking antidepressants since I voiced my preference for death. I have zero faith in their ability to do anything, but the docs recommended them, so whatever. I spoke to a shrink because the docs recommended it, so whatever. I let them adjust my happy pill dosage whenever they want, not because I think they will work, but because I literally don't give a shit about taking a couple extra pills every day.

There's little point to living like this lest we're doing it for other's sake.

Yup. Once my elderly mother dies, I'll feel free to do whatever I want.

[Tim C.]

As an Apparelyzed refugee - and a formerly suicidal one at that - I'll give my opinion on this. I have a high cervical injury (C4- no vent though, thank God), about more than a year after the injury occurred I was probably the MOST suicidal I had ever been. I told a psychiatrist that I was determined to be euthanized in Europe (Belgium etc. - one of those places with a suicide clinic) and of course I was pumped full of SSRI's afterwards and declared "mentally ill". The psychiatric community doesn't really understand our grief. Suicidal thoughts are unfortunately common among high quads, though that doesn't make it "normal" it doesn't make it indicative of mental disease either.

I at this point in my life have decided that I want to live, but I can understand those who may not want to continue.

Good 2nd post, you can stay in CC now.

[greenseed]

http://www.cbc.ca/beta/news/health/m...lamb-1.4067629
Woman and BCCLA taking gov to court over assisted dying law
"on June 27 last year, just 10 days after Bill C-14 passed and made medically assisted death legal, Lamb and the B.C. Civil Liberties Association (BCCLA) filed a lawsuit against the government of Canada to do just that, saying that the "reasonably foreseeable death" requirement is in violation of Canadians' charter rights.The federal government filed a response defending itself against Lamb'slawsuit last July, but a date for the case to be heard in the Supreme Court of British Columbia has not yet been set."

[Vintage]

James we have a lot in common, and I am very skeptical about psychiatry as well for informed and experienced reason. I went through the whole psychiatry process after SCI (as an adult) and even before it (as a teen) and it did absolutely nothing for me. A matter of fact my self esteem suffered even more because the results of my psychological assessment deemed me as a being a negative person with personality problems. And it was somehow implied that my attitude and not my disability was hindering me more - which was very hurtful.

The only thing that I an recommend to you is to pursue higher education in order to get yourself in a position of power as opposed to a position of control (living off of benefits etc.). There are other high quads who have gotten themselves out of poverty doing this and now have careers with a much higher standard of living.

On a different forum, I recently made the following comment, and I'll repeat it here.
"P.S. Yes, psychiatrists are dangerous. In my opinion, their usefulness is outweighed by their potential for misuse of power."

[Tim C.]

On a different forum, I recently made the following comment, and I'll repeat it here.
"P.S. Yes, psychiatrists are dangerous. In my opinion, their usefulness is outweighed by their potential for misuse of power."

Explain?

[MeetMeInMontauk]

I've been thinking about suicide a lot this past year or two. I'm not depressed. I love life. I enjoy things every day. There is still so much that I want to do. But I also don't want to live paralyzed. I go through too much pain physically, and I feel like I'll never be able to live the able-bodied life that I dream about everyday. I feel like the lady of shallot who is cursed to look out the window everyday at everyone enjoying life around her, but never allowed to go enjoy it herself. That, plus I have been through so many bouts of being dysreflixic non-stop for 4 days at a time that I feel traumatized. I would rather die than go through it again. I'll probably give myself a few more years, but if I had the choice to end my life by pressing a button or something, then I would rather die today than to live another 40 years paralyzed.

[river61]

I've not felt this depressed in a long time. I'm a T-4 para with severe rheumatoid arthritis, my hands are in constant pain, the meds aren't working any longer and I waiting for approval to get on a different med that might help. Add to that the constant worry about money. I retired from my job as a counselor because of the rheumatoid, my partner works a shit job part time, we're barely making it. My family wants nothing to do with us because we're sinners in their eyes, my friends don't have accessible homes nor the inclination to make their homes accessible, we literally have no money for Taco Bell much less going out with friends. I'm staying alive because I haven't found a quick way out (no guns please) and my dog would be very upset without me, i guess that's something.

[stevegalliazzo]

I hear you. LIving in pain is not fun and it beats the shit out of you 24-7. Look forward to the small things like a cup of coffee. If I lay down I'm not in that much pain. But as soon as I move two feet in the morning I catch on fire and stay on fire, It takes a couple of hours of laying still before it becomes tolerable again. Needless to say I have been laying down a lot. This shit makes you week and sick all the time. God hates a coward.

[Tim C.]

I've not felt this depressed in a long time. I'm a T-4 para with severe rheumatoid arthritis, my hands are in constant pain, the meds aren't working any longer and I waiting for approval to get on a different med that might help. Add to that the constant worry about money. I retired from my job as a counselor because of the rheumatoid, my partner works a shit job part time, we're barely making it. My family wants nothing to do with us because we're sinners in their eyes, my friends don't have accessible homes nor the inclination to make their homes accessible, we literally have no money for Taco Bell much less going out with friends. I'm staying alive because I haven't found a quick way out (no guns please) and my dog would be very upset without me, i guess that's something.

You're a sinner, huh?
For being a para, not quad/
who is anyone to judge an sci.

[lynnifer]

I've not felt this depressed in a long time. I'm a T-4 para with severe rheumatoid arthritis, my hands are in constant pain, the meds aren't working any longer and I waiting for approval to get on a different med that might help. Add to that the constant worry about money. I retired from my job as a counselor because of the rheumatoid, my partner works a shit job part time, we're barely making it. My family wants nothing to do with us because we're sinners in their eyes, my friends don't have accessible homes nor the inclination to make their homes accessible, we literally have no money for Taco Bell much less going out with friends. I'm staying alive because I haven't found a quick way out (no guns please) and my dog would be very upset without me, i guess that's something.

Would heated pool therapy help?