I'm not sure why I'm sharing this. Just to get an idea of how weird and crazy my life is.

Around 6 AM started feeling nauseous. Then I started throwing up every 15 minutes or so, this dark bile. I was so tired that I could not lift my head up, and my pillows got dirty. The last time I felt like this it was an obstruction and I had to be in the hospital for a few days. So I called the doctor on call, who told me to go to the ER. Then I turned around and it turned out I had an accident although I did not feel as nauseous. I then spend the next three hours trying to clean up, on the toilet, calling someone to help clean up the bed. And I had another. So I had to take two showers. Basically dealing with this took something something like 10 hours. Somehow trying to cath in a hygienic way. I suspect it is due to the antibiotic course I had recently but who knows. It's really ridiculous. Also, this illustrates why I am reluctant to have an operation. Dealing with this kind of thing when I feel 100% takes literally all my energy: I could barely move at times from exhaustion. If I had an operation, I just couldn't manage this at all in a weakened state.