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    Melbourne, FL USA

    Died, now they're killing me

    Have a DNR on file but she brought me back anyway, can't blame her instinct is to save me, doesn't have time to check the freaking file for DNR but still in hell.

    Sent me home with a cough assist device and on Palliative care which changed to hospice a month later, because there?s an opioid crisis and it was the easiest way to get me narcotics.

    One weekend it became difficult for a catheter to go through sphincter easily and Hospice did not call me back for three days and wound up in ICU, ending up with a super pubic.

    The last time had a super pubic my body rejected it and had to go to intermittent catheterization. After being discharged in the middle of March, had no doctor, no prescription, no coverage, and no help.

    If I had been alert and coherent could have told them how to mitigate my bladder spasms when catheterizing. If they had held the catheter in place once they got it past the sphincter muscle it would drain my bladder following problems would?ve never occurred.

    Catheterize me for 300 mL before my bladder spasms pushed the dam catheter out And the sonogram show 1200 remaining. I have to hold the catheter in place or my body will push it out while it?s draining.

    Unfortunately was so totally wiped out and without the energy could not take control for the first time in my injury, and am paying the price now.

    While I was in ICU my blood pressure crashed and the stupid nurse said I was NPO and wouldn?t give me my blood pressure medicine. Would let me talk to his manager or put the bed in Trendelenburg.

    At the 7 o?clock shift change the first thing the nurse did was put me in Trendelenburg and gave me the medicine.

    Don't think of been a more stressful situation. The spasms that were gone years and years ago are back with a vengeance. Taking Valium since breaking my neck and have not had any since March. The spasms that were gone years and years ago are back with a vengeance raising my pain an order of magnitude

    Lost the ability to open the garage door or see my cameras. Lost my network and cell phone does not work, No Internet, No Landline totally isolated and not connected to the outside world.

    Not lying in bed till I die in this kind of pain and stress. Blood pressure goes from 260/140 to 70/40 in seconds, bending my spine in any direction hurts. So if I move it hurts and they told me I would have no motor or sensory function below my level of injury.
    With the ocean in the front yard and the Lagoon in the backyard, it was paradise to grow up here: the gateway to a prolonged death.

    Nobody wants me.

    My parents didn't even put ramps in the house for me, two wheelie to get in the front door and my girlfriends on their first visit freaked at holiday meals, showers with a garden hose in January outside, adding another wheelie.

    In today's business model for medical services you get one point in compensation for one visit for an able-bodied person. Taking care of a quadriplegic such as myself, gives them no more compensation a lot more additional work and a risk factor.

    Who lives by themselves since breaking their neck has no family and the medical issue is autonomic dysreflexia caused by the pain of my broken body. When getting out of bed my blood pressure goes to 260/140. However, my normal blood pressure is really low having actually got it to 40/28 lying down.

    For with much wisdom comes much sorrow;
    the more knowledge, the more grief.

    A nurse showed up and my garage door opener would not work, could not let her in.

    Lightning strike on the pole outside my house took out the cable, Internet modem and router.

    Lost my network - leaving me no V/IP telephone - can?t chat or email.

    Totally isolated and not connected to the outside world.

    Got hit again and lost my router, landline telephone and phone modem. Less than three days between it and I have UPS?s back there, sigh? Kick a dead horse.

    So very tired, my 02 is low and have been taking a lot of Proamatine because can?t keep my blood pressure up and I?m always thirsty, back to over a gallon a day.

    Many C6 injuries, a stasis that will be with me in my entire life, floating up facedown, past the break, and no sense of urgency. New I had to roll over and breathe. Just hadn?t figured out how to do it yet.

    Had these questions prepared because Palliative Care will no longer be able to see me. One of their doctors, quit one Friday afternoon without any notice and since they can?t continue to care for me when I don?t meet certain medical requirements see the part about the esophagus.

    Just like my parents nobody wants me. The doctor lying to me unnecessarily just so they can get out (responsibility) as quick as possible.

    What do I do? He is going to write me and my general practitioner, Dr. X a letter.

    What are my options? Not many with the opioid crisis.

    Not to hold you to it, but what would you estimate my lifespan to be? Six months, six years. Unfortunately, he has my disability classified as a degenerative muscular skeletal disease that would eventually deteriorate my esophagus muscles and then the ability to swallow. There is no DMS code for quadriplegics such as myself.

    Should I stop fighting and I is it inevitable the near future? Told me that I will die from infection, skin, UTI is or pneumonia, in that order. Didn?t like that answer either.

    Asked if .25 ?g of fentanyl +20 mg oxycodone three times a day out of the range? He told me they were is an opioid crisis and I said ignore the opioid crisis and just how you would treat me. Told me that that level of narcotics was relatively low for my situation.

    Monday, one night call to see when the doctor was coming and they said tomorrow for the last time went to sleep at 10 PM woke two hours later and have not been asleep since. Took the value as an anti-spasmodic because of the severe spasm must for me out the chair in bed, etc. now my muscles have atrophied and can no longer do that but now my life is incredibly stressed but I?m already on diazepam.

    Have been taking Valium since going up and over the rails in rehab 1983 and now find out it's a "stigmatized" drug and have to get another special Dr. He said take less value and agree.

    Some of the details about my low 02 and my inability to keep my blood pressure up and other things that we discussed that he has no clue about. So it appears the answer is press on. For now.

    Wish I could hire someone just to be nice to me and didn?t have to fight so hard but keep running into the difficulty of accepting help.
    Last edited by SCI-Nurse; 07-13-2019 at 02:11 PM.

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