I hear you but really think about it. I was ready to take my life 12 or so years ago, it was before my accident. My bipolar depression was difficult. Now I am so glad I did not. Granted now I am only a para verses a quad. I am not sure where I would be mentally if I was a quad. Talk with your family so they know where you are at emotionally and mentally. Don't just do this alone. I saw the movie me before you which played out what sounds like where you are at. Really determine if there is no reason to keep living. Don't be afraid to share and vent here. We all will be here if you need someone to talk with, we may not have answers you need but we can be your friend.