So here we go again. After they removed half my pelvis and rooted around in there amputating my leg and shifting around muscle, my nerve pain went through the roof.

I was on Buprenorphine, Fentanyl, etc, etc. I'd settle on a dose and a little bit later there was the pain again at the same intensity. It's like my pain "reset" even though I had more and more drugs in my system. Finally, after dealing with the detox of various meds I found relief with Methadone (10mg BID) plus Oxcarbazepine (Trileptal) (300mg BID). That gave me enough relief to actually start functioning again and pulled me out of the depression that was leading me to want to kill myself from the pain.

Now the pain's coming back, day 5 now of increased intensity. I really don't want to increase my dosages anymore, and realistically I'm on pretty low doses, I just hate these side effects and doping myself up every damn day.

This pain is a goddamn curse.