Sounds like a case of waiting for the other shoe to drop! I do that too. I have anxiety disorder and for me I think it's over analyzing everything that does it
"Never turn your back on fear. It should always be in front of you, like a thing that might have to be killed." - Hunter Thompson
someone once told me to "cheer up, things could be worse "
so I cheered up and sure enough, things got worse
Try to stay in the present moment. My monsters aren't lurkers and are nipping at my flanks, but I did have an amazing life until about 5 years ago. At least I have happy memories of a younger life well lived.
49 year old female
chair user since 2009 from a neurological disorder