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Thread: Keith Smith . "We are going to walk again! "

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    Quote Originally Posted by nrf View Post
    And Obama was going to cure Paralysis by pouring money into the NIH? Is this the politics thread? Unemployment at 5% with another 10% no longer even bothering to look for jobs? The Socialist Utopia will finally become reality in the good old USA?!?! LOL
    No this is not a political thread so no more political comment from me on this thread. Someone said vote for Trump so I could not resist.

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    Quote Originally Posted by scimike View Post
    No this is not a political thread so no more political comment from me on this thread. Someone said vote for Trump so I could not resist.
    I'm happy to follow your lead here!

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    Quote Originally Posted by JamesMcM View Post
    So talking to God is suddenly going to make me think a dependent (leech like) existence is dignified and acceptable? Where 6 inches of elevation is my prison and 10 pounds is my limit, oh please! My expectations are staying right where they should be. I begged and begged to "God" to heal me give me back my body, my independence and dignity , When he didn't do that I just simply begged for enough to have some freedom on my own! When that didn't happen I begged and prayed into the darkest of nights when I couldn't sleep because I couldn't even change my position to get comfortable or grab myself a glass of water without having to trouble another person;I just prayed for him to let me die, kill me, don't let me wake up, take what little dignity is left no more fucking bowel care!! No more! That crosses the fucking line! No more being a burden... Still nothing. So I awoke to be carried, I woke to be cleaned and dressed, I awoke to lose all self-respect as somebody dug into my asshole pulling the shitfrom my lifeless bodytaking every last shred of self-worth with it! Only to do it again the next day! If I decide I want to go out do something guess what; got to ask someone to help! Now I do everything I can to ask for as little as possible, has implications but the other option is not an option! God didnt show up, so I took it in to my hands ( figuratively as I couldn't possibly even if I wanted to ) ! I spent thousands and thousands of dollars to trouble someone to drive me to physiotherapy have the people exercise my dead body, positioning me where I can use my little function to support my bodyweight and attempt to manipulate myself and I tried it over and over and over again, tried advanced robotics,functional electrostimulation, hyperbaric oxygen therapy, magnetic therapy, acupuncture, visualization treatment etc. money coming out of me like Niagara Falls! Switched the controls of my wheelchair to my "bad" arm so I could attempt to train it constantly throughout the day, even when I'm not at physiotherapy. Got My own $5000 electro stim unit, wrist weights that just ended up destroying my shoulders. Drinking and eating only the healthiest and often disgusting food in hopes to help neurons fire. two years later still no improvements, then 3 1/2 years of that plus physiotherapy, and ungodly amount of money I still can't even pronate my right arm, I can't even move it in certain positions at all, no sensation has returned! turn off the lights I don't even know where my arms or hands are! I beat my leg till my crippled hands and legs were blue, not even the slightest sensation only excessive nerve pain and dysreflexia; my body's way of telling me what to do not the other way around. I continue to educate myself more and more, eventually asking God to simply let me win the lottery or let me win my court cases, so I can actually fight this, The only way that's possible with the injury as bad as mine considering I physically can't exercise myself... Still nothing... After all of those resources and effort I haven't even been able to achieve the function of a standard C-5 injury, even if it is complete, but still I continue! Four years post the only way possibleto gain independence with my injury is with the help of modern medicine, research etc. still asking God to help out,so I can help myself and the cause, because that will affect far more than just myself, again still nothing! I'm still asking the guy to kill me anyway he sees fit, there's no more dignity to leave with Way too late for that, but nope still no answer. Still gotta wake up and expect someone to get me up and ready. I don't need to walk anymore,I don't need to be a prime specimen anymore, I don't even need to fight anymore, would that give me purpose, would that make me happy absolutely but that's not what it's about anymore that's gone; it's gone for a lot of us!! What I do need is the function to be left to my own strength and resilience, so I can utilize those things, not somebody elses; just lay around helplessly as a lifeless Defenseless/dependent/useless head on dead body with a of mind of its own; be free to make my own decisions without waiting for someone else's approval or being a burden Every single fucking time. As you can see I've exhausted all options in terms of asking God for help, as the person I'am!

    Often times I think I must of done some terrible things in the past, to warrant this! Truth be told I did, I never listened to anyone I followed my own mind and my own path,only listen to others with similar strengths. I became obsessed with lifting more, running faster, jumping higher etc, of becoming a weapon! I didn't have time for trivial things like family dinners, birthday parties including my own; only thing that mattered was being able to do more, and learning how to bake myself able to do it. was it selfish absolutely!no denying that, but put someone I care about ( even though I've never show it affection is not my thing) in danger, aim a gun at them and see who steps in front of itwell all the more "affectionate" and "selfless" run to save them selves. If there is a God he knows who'd be there. But then I realize right now, there are terrorists beheading people, Paedophiles getting their next victim going on Scott free, sometimes never seeing any form of "justice"and that's just to name a few examples, we all know there's many. So it leads me to question God yet again, I don't believe in religion, because I don't believe in man and I see what religion has done to our history how many it's killed how much genocide has taken place in the name of it! But I know that our consciousness is not just a fluke, and there's something greater than us; not because I'm afraid of nothingness and our existence meaning nothing , like most people do. But simply because I just can't wrap my mind around consciousness being some simplistic natural anomaly! That's all I have to say about it...
    One cannot find peace within, without the presents of God.

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    Quote Originally Posted by Oldtimer View Post
    One cannot find peace within, without the presents of God.
    We can all use more presents and presence from God!

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    Thread hijacking sucks.

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    Quote Originally Posted by t8burst View Post
    Democrats: lack a fundamental understanding of economics.
    Partisans: people who buy into the political theatre of wedge issues produced by the oligarchy solely as a means to divide, conquer and pilfer. If you truly believe there is a substantive difference between the U.S. political parties then you've not examined their financial backing and have been duped.

    Can we get back to the thread topic now?

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    Quote Originally Posted by nrf View Post
    We can all use more presents and presence from God!
    You didn't have any problems reading it!

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    Quote Originally Posted by Mize View Post
    Partisans: people who buy into the political theatre of wedge issues produced by the oligarchy solely as a means to divide, conquer and pilfer. If you truly believe there is a substantive difference between the U.S. political parties then you've not examined their financial backing and have been duped.

    Can we get back to the thread topic now?
    Liberal: Believes free speech means only saying things that are sanctioned by the left.

    Funny you attack me, who wasn't the person who hijacked the thread w/ politics merely made an equally stupid comment from the right side of the political spectrum. Because of course it is okay for the left to make sweeping generalizations about the right but not the other way around.

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    You were not attacked, just replied and my criticism was of both of you buying into the charade.

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    It looks like the fingers are being pointed at me for hijacking the thread. The original poster has a good video, looks like I'm the only one that watched it. I may have pushed him as it took almost two months but he did respond with a "thank you". He has made progress by trying which is more than can be said for some others. I am old school and have learned to play the cards I've been dealt because if I don't, I know SCI has won. I'm not going to sit around bitching and moaning while waiting to get fixed, life is too short the way it is. We don't need to be so sensitive to not make jokes. No two injuries are the same, I enjoy giving credit where it's due, the original poster gets my vote!

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