Fml

[SequinScandal]

Is there an official rant thread? Well if there is I couldn't find it. Anyways, I hate my life now more than ever. June 17th marked the 7 year anniversary of the day my life turned to shit. I'm now 26 years old and what have I accomplished in life thus far? Nothing! How pathetic. I feel so lost I don't even know what to do. I try so hard to get at least one foot in the door but I can't. Always something fucking blocking my way in. I could go on and on but I'll digress. I just felt the need to let everyone know how I was feeling. Spare me the it gets better bs. One can only stay positive for so long. Ok I'm done now for real. Good night!

[Patton57]

One thing I've learned recently is that very few people like a crip with a negative outlook or bad attitude. I think our only chance is to act happy in public regardless of how we feel. It isn't fair but it's the only thing that seems to work for me. At 24 years post I thought I had earned the right to act normal but apparently I was wrong. Now I'm a happy camper no matter what!

Slap the happy on and go get them!

[november]

You have mentioned that you have a child and you are in school. You are doing and accomplishing something. None of this is a race. You'll get where you're going.

[lynnifer]

You have mentioned that you have a child and you are in school.

Exactly. I would have killed for either opportunity.

26 was the age I started working full time and that was 14yrs ago. Still hope yet!

[SequinScandal]

I've only been in school since 2008 , stopping, starting, stopping, starting, completely starting all over again, and now at a stop again. I'd much rather work right now.

[lynnifer]

Why are people who are paralyzed so hard on themselves? #Rhetorical

I'm this way too .. I just can't figure out why, lol.

[Buck503]

I've only been in school since 2008 , stopping, starting, stopping, starting, completely starting all over again, and now at a stop again. I'd much rather work right now.

That's exactly what I did. I now feel more motivation to do something than I've felt throughout my whole injury (8.5 years).

[SequinScandal]

Why are people who are paralyzed so hard on themselves? #Rhetorical

I'm this way too .. I just can't figure out why, lol.

I'm afraid of not being successful. I always think about how further I'd be in life if I didn't have a SCI. I feel like I want to do certain things, but I need a little help in doing those things and I don't have it. I envy people who have super supportive and helpful families. I don't care what anyone says having that makes getting back on your feet a lot easier.

[SequinScandal]

That's exactly what I did. I now feel more motivation to do something than I've felt throughout my whole injury (8.5 years).

Ditto, I'm so motivated to do things I just don't know where to start and no one to turn to for help/guidance.

[lynnifer]

I'm afraid of not being successful. I always think about how further I'd be in life if I didn't have a SCI. I feel like I want to do certain things, but I need a little help in doing those things and I don't have it. I envy people who have super supportive and helpful families. I don't care what anyone says having that makes getting back on your feet a lot easier.

I left home at 18 after being paralyzed at 12. I now have a brother who is actively in my life and I can call for help but I'm so used to not having that ... but I didn't for 20yrs. Actually 25.

I've exceeded what I set out for myself and I didn't even graduate college or university.

You can do this. We all are afraid - quite normal.