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    Quote Originally Posted by Flyarmy64 View Post
    Muskie and others,

    I feel your pain and frustration. Life in these broken bodies can be hard, both physically and mentally. It has been through this experience the last 11 years that I was humbeled and found my Lord and Savior Jesus the Messiah.

    Please check out this video I made, regarding pain and hope..


    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BaPty...e_gdata_player
    thanks fly, very peaceful video thank you again for the vid and your service I am ex air force
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    Yes, at times I lose hope for a cure to my injury. I know spinal cord injury researchers are trying but real, meaningful progress on getting both newly injured & those of us with older chronic injuries moving paralyzed muscles again always seems so far away.
    C4/5 incomplete, 17 years since injury

    "The trick is in what one emphasizes. We either make ourselves miserable, or we make ourselves happy. The amount of work is the same.” - Carlos Castaneda

    "We live not alone but chained to a creature of a different kingdom: our body." - Marcel Proust

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    Quote Originally Posted by muskie View Post
    I am a relative newbie, my son has only been injured about 1 and half years. I am the eternal optimist (Met fan think we are going to the playoffs every year). Sometimes though as I follow the blogs and I see a hopeful post, within hours it has detractors. I want to believe my son will be cured. I have to believe it. He doesn't, my wife doesn't, then why do I? So many incredibly smart people working on this for so long yet there is no cure. But I believe in the Dr Young's, Silvers, Stewards and others. I believe these folks will one day return me my boy, the one I long to play catch with just one more time. I hate the pain of this injury, I hate that I need to put my son to bed every night with a smile on my face and a dagger in my heart. I sometimes feel the fraud as his tears stream down his face and macho dad says it will be ok son,they are getting closer. I pray for strength to be a good dad and husband and make good decisions. My faith wavers, maybe it is just normal emotion. I am supposed to be the rock, not the pebble and I can never be the puddle. I want to fix this so bad, but I can't I am just an average guy no one special. I guess this is just a low quiet moment for me my son and wife are asleep and I what if? But what ifs don't do anything unless they involve the present or the future. So am I an abject failure because my hope wavers or is it just a sinusoid and and I am in a trough? I hope that is it. I think why a c5 and not a t5? Then I read of a 7 year old that is injured and I feel the fool. For those of you who believe in God please say a kind word for people like me for those of you who don't please send a kind thought for people like me.
    Ten years ago when my son got hurt I was also full of hope. I was told by so many that withing 5 years there will be a "cure" of some sort. Years had passed, nothing happening, a cure for someone who had spent a decade or more in a chair is not that realistic so now all I hope for my son is a pain free, illness free life with financial security .
    I am just being realistic.
    My mouth is like a magician's hat, never know what might come out of it.

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    as a fellow mets fan, i hope for the playoffs every year. how does that saying go? you can hope in one hand and........

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    Quote Originally Posted by lynnifer View Post
    Sending kind thoughts. Kudos for being such a great parent.

    28yrs this summer ... my hope has been way at the bottom of the barrel and way up high ... currently I'm riding a high.

    What we see here is just a tip of the iceberg ... what if some new exciting and dramatic discovery were to appear tomorrow? Or next week? Perhaps some student is excitingly sharing the results of a eureka moment ...

    We just never know. That's the sucking part about hope ... too much and it feels futile ... too little and you're despondent.

    For a ship to sail, it needs to have an even keel. I don't have anything better at 4:14am but keep fighting the good fight!
    Well ... 5:25am on a Monday morning, shivering from a bladder infection with general malaise and wondering what the sense is in going on ... what a roller coaster ride paralysis is ... I want off! Can't believe I wrote that crap. lol
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    Quote Originally Posted by lynnifer View Post
    Well ... 5:25am on a Monday morning, shivering from a bladder infection with general malaise and wondering what the sense is in going on ... what a roller coaster ride paralysis is ... I want off! Can't believe I wrote that crap. lol
    Stay focused and be strong! I absolutely know what you are talking about.....we have to go on fighting and we will and we can!!!! Keep your head up.

    Greetings from germany

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    Lynnifer, hope you feel better, now go have a hot cup of tea
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