I had a surgey on 09/15/2008 and have been in pain ever since , the morphine I take every day does not stop it. I had a synovial cyst on my spinal cord and the Dr was so excited becuase it had been 35 years since he has seen one where mine was, very very unusal I'm guessing. He advised to fuse my upper neck at C6-T1 because the cyst was @ C7-T1 but on the left side and he said he could not safely remove it , too dangerous he said, to close to the nerves and spinal cord and it would take 2 surgeries. One to strenghten my neck , after that healed he would go back in and get the cyst. He did not do what he said, and with out my permission he did both in one shot, fused my neck and removed the cyst. I also came out of surgery with a hump in my back I did not have when I went in. he said it didnt matter it might go away it might not. His attitude towards me was rude, perhaps becaused I questioned him. I have been on all kinds of pain meds ever since and currently morphine for about 7 months. I feel like I have been hit by a truck every day, I scream out in my sleep (what little sleep I do get) because I cannot turn my body over. Most of the pain radiates from the hump I now have but goes through out my body. I have tried everything and any alternative there is looking for relief. I can not get second opinions other Dr's do not want to touch me after another Doctor might have screwed up. I am so desperate I have even thought of ending it all. I cant take the pain any more or what the drugs are doing to my body and I also have a liver desease so the pain meds are not good for that .... . He killed my nerves ? I dont know , I try to excerise, take vitamins, massage therapy, accupuncture, herbal stuff, even as i sit here and type this I can barely fight the tears of pain. I dont even know why I am writing this and what can come of it Its mine first time.. I feel so alone I dont know what to do anymore. yeah, I know other people are alot worse I did not lose a limb or am not in a wheelchair but I am running out of hope and I know it woul devastate my Mom and daughter if I finally ended it, but I am hoping they would understand, maybe I'm too chcken as well.
Well thanks to whoever you might be for listening to me complain or feel sorry for myself.
Casey0327
Ps .. I could not find the spelll check on this thing, my apoligies