Every time I have a bowel accident (at least twice a week), it makes me contemplate suicide or at the very least how much I hate my life.
They happen usually in the evening/nighttime regardless of if I had a good bm that morning or not (I go M W F with the help of suppositories).
For example yesterday morning (Friday), went to the bathroom, normal results then a huge accident that night and another big one tonight. I don't even eat that much!
Why is my body doing this to me?
What can I do to fix this?
P.S. Had a bladder augmentation last year. My uro surgeon wanted me to do the MACE procedure also where you flush out your system through a stoma every day but there was so little info about it here so I decided not to.