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    Grateful to be caregiving

    I was thinking recently of how grateful I am to be able to care for my son. I think I have finally gotten through the depression stage although I am sure there will be times of saddness. Some one wrote that they felt they had lost their life and I have felt that but now I have made a new life and it is not bad at all. I am so grateful that we have In Home Support Services that means I don't have to leave Chris alone at home to go out to work. Finances are very tight but I find that to be surprisingly liberating to be a light consumer. We are debt-free and greed free. We are now renters and so we are not owned by a house. When the plumbing breaks the landlord fixes it. I can open the balcony door most days here in SoCal and let the fresh air in.

    Besides the gratefulness I feel, I think the one thing that got me out of depression that was around for over 2 years was to forgive. I have been so resistant to saying a prayer of forgiveness to all those who hurt us but I have been doing it anyway. I would think "what and let them walk away without any punishment after the evil they have done to us?" I'm not sure what the change in my heart was but I just used some prayer beads and at every bead a person came to mind and I would say "I forgive him/her, their punishment is not my concern." It seems to be working. Like a weight has been lifted.

    I am also so thankful for this site for the people here who I love. Even though I mostly feel that I can't post, I come here every day and feel connected. Thanks guys.
    Darthe

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    Darthe-

    Thank you for this post. I am so happy that you are able to find some peace, some liberation. Sometimes I hate people who say "That which does not kill us makes us stronger." But most days I know they're right.

    The best news of all is that you found the freedom of forgiveness. That has been a huge blessing in my life. I love what you said, "Their punishment is not my concern." You're very wise. I hope you have joyful and peaceful holidays-Beth

    Can't stop the spirits when they need you/This life is more than just a read thru.-
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    Thanks Betheny
    The one that always bugged me was "God won't give you more than you can endure". Probably true but not fun to hear from others when I was in the middle of it.

    I have found the best way to have a peaceful Christmas. I ignore it completely. No stress, no new debt, no new pounds. Me and Jesus just stay home.
    Darthe

    "A smooth sea never made a skilled mariner"

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    "their punishment is not my concern" .... that is very liberating to me. Thank you for sharing that, even though it is very unrelated to SCI for me.

    Ami

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